Hurt & Pain

I don't know where to start off this post. Normally I have so much to say but right now I am at a lost for words. I feel betrayed. Betrayed by someone who I loved for a long time. I gave them a lot. I gave them time and money and love, and most importantly, I gave them myself. They threw it all away without explanation. It was only through others that I found out the truth. I feel hurt and pain but for some odd reason I still feel love. I long for the day that I feel indifference. I want to call and tell you how I feel-- but I fear you will not answer. Instead, I must keep it inside and deal with the sadness and pain. I hope one day it all goes away and I feel nothing for you, as you do now for me.